Now i know my baby loves me :)

baby, i know sometimes it dosent seem like it but i love u so much
i know i can be an ass sometimes and
i know i have treated u shitty in the past but i promise i wont anymore
i promise baby i love u so much i wanna spend the rest of my life for ya for real.
and the only thing i want for chritsmas actually is
for us to be engaged cause that would be one step crossed out
and i know i wont break up or hurt you
anymore i promise u that i wont do anything to hurt
you i know you dont like it when i drink but it seems like
when im drunk things come out easier u know what
i mean but since u dont like it i wont drink but every once in awhile
just work with me and dont give up on me babe
please.

the thing is where i was with jimmy for so long and everything
he had me down low and im still their but im slowly coming out of it
just please dont give up
u mean so much to me baby i swear.
when im laying their in ur arms im so comfy
and i feel safe. I know what we got is real.
when i look in ur eyes and when i see you smile
its like gosh how could he love me like he dose
and i never want you to leave me ever.

everytime i think of you i smile and i know i love u
i know things may be hard but its gonna get better
i talked to mom and she said she would think about
letting all things she has against u go. im slowly working on it
..but today it made a good impact.
i know it did cause she said shed think about it..
u mean so much to me.
i know you wont hurt me baby.
i dont know how but i just do.


five years from now where do i see my self?...
i see my self next to you waking up with you
going to sleep with you and hopfully being able to say
thats my husband cause damn boy
u mean so much to me its unreal.
i realized i love u more than i love jimmy
way more and ill have ya forever and ever.
as

Never Thought I could love again

Do you ever feel like you could never love again after just one relationship. Well thats how i was with Austin. We was together for 4 months and that was the best 4 months of my life. He showed me so much. He also showed me what i didnt want in a relationship. He was sweet at first and everything but who isnt. Well after me and him broke up i felt pain that i never thought i would feel. I went through relationships like changing my underwear. Well i met one of his Bf's and we started talking yea i know it is wrong but it is the best thing i have never done. I love him so much. He showed me that i didnt need austin in my life to make me happy. He is i do believe the one for me. I am going to ask him to marry me on his bday and i really do hope he says yes:). Yea some people dont think we shouldnt be together well really i dont care what you want if i am happy with him then i am going to stay with him. I cant wait till he moves in and we can finally be happy fully:) even though he is going to bring cuddlers his snake and i hate snakes but that snake makes him happy and if it makes him happy then he can have all the snakes he wants as long as they stay away from me of course lol....